The naked truth is sometimes better than the story in our skeptical minds:

Sometimes we think the worst of someone because of what someone else has said to us and under the circumstances the story seems to fit so we change our perception & react. But sometimes that story that’s so believable and makes so much sense couldn’t be further from the truth. What I’ve learnt recently is that you must never let someone else alter your view of another person unless you’ve seen it first hand and even then things can be blurred and confusing. There are so many people out there it seems with ulterior motives that really just want to watch someone burn, even when they can see their target is already struggling. I never thought this was possible as I’ve always been the loving naive type I guess when it comes to matters of the heart and friendships but yeah some people are just dark on the inside & really don’t care what happens to you because of their lies & mistruths. I guess the morale to the story is, if you’re happy even though everyone else is seeing something else, then just keep your mouth shut & don’t react but find out from the source. It reminds me of this poem I read once, this basically explains the lesson I’ve learnt in one eloquent and comical prose…

“Once upon a time, there was a non-conforming sparrow who decided not to

fly south for the winter. However, soon after the weather turned cold,

the sparrow changed his mind and reluctantly started to fly south.

After a short time, ice began to form his on his wings and he fell to

earth in a barnyard almost frozen. A cow passed by and crapped on this

little bird and the sparrow thought it was the end, but the manure

warmed him and defrosted his wings. Warm and happy the little sparrow

began to sing. Just then, a large Tom cat came by and hearing the

chirping investigated the sounds. As Old Tom cleared away the manure,

he found the chirping bird and promptly ate him.

There are three morals to this story:

(1) Everyone who shits on you is not necessarily your enemy.

(2) Everyone who gets you out of shit is not necessarily your friend.

(3) If you are warm and happy in a pile of shit, keep your mouth shut.” Author unknown.

Haha funny but so true. Hope you like it 💜xx

October 10, 2017 0

Dear Cancer…

“Dear Cancer, You’re a selfish needy jerk. I already told you it’s over on 4 separate occasions so please can you seriously just bugger off, nobody likes you anyway. It’s been 24 years I think now since we first met, and I’ve got to say you’ve been a jerk since day one. You took my father from me, you made me ill and scared for my life, you made me lose my hair and made me lose weight until I was the weight of a small child. You even started taking my body parts. You’ve ruined relationships that I could have been successful in if it weren’t for you. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t do anything with you in my life. My friends hate you, I hate you, my cat even hates you. Shrivel up now and disappear for good. I can’t keep having to go to all this effort to get you out of my life every few years. I’m already scarred enough as it is. You’re not welcome back!!! Unaffectionately yours, your(trying to be) ex girlfriend, Jacqueline :b hah”

This is a little exert I posted on “I had Cancer.com”
A site that is helping provide support and awareness for the young adult demographic who have gone or are going through cancer and for those caring for someone affected by this seriously shitty illness.

I figured cancer ends up being like a bit of a toxic relationship that you can’t get out of so why not talk about it as such. One thing I probably should add though is although my soon to be Ex has caused me so much drama, pain and disarray in my life, he has also taught me to be even more kind, even more empathetic and understanding.
I’m probably there more than I need to be for people sometimes and give far too many chances, but I understand the concept of finality and having your last moments with someone. I understand people make mistakes and half the time have no idea what they’re really even doing & most of us a scared sh#tless. I know that sometimes we don’t get to have a second chance with someone no matter how much we wish for it. Cancer can take and take until one day there is nothing left, and so is true for normal life’s struggles. I feel more comfortable giving more of myself each day to others than I do giving less to protect myself and one day discover that that moment I chose not to give back just happened to be my last day to every be with that person again. Life is so fleeting, we really don’t have time for such hatred and selfishness in our lives. Give love no matter what and watch the world change. Giving love can never truly end in disappointment if it’s genuine.
I’ve had to learn this all the hard way, through cancers aftermath and losing a dear friend to suicide. Just know we’re all way more vulnerable than people let on. The tough guy mentality is sometimes just a shield to protect him from his pain. Give love always x

October 10, 2017 0

I believe this is what they call growth…

I’m nervous to post this as it’s a bit of a mind blurt from when I woke up this morning but here goes…some creative writing from me……..
“Maybe hell is disguised as a paradise with all the things that you could ever ask for. Then slowly but surely and painfully all those things get taken from you one by one until you are standing there left bare with only yourself that must help you to rise again into whatever the reality of what a true Utopia would look like. Soul bare and heart open we must climb back up to find our own inner peace of mind again, climbing away from the downward spiraling heartache and awful gut feelings we didn’t listen to as we reached for something that was perhaps not meant for us or that we ignored when we should have taken note.

We live with such masks on these days I think it’s so hard to tell fact from fiction. That we begin even fooling ourselves. A simple life can bring us down but in reality up; to view all the things we missed but we must walk through some of the painful honest truths of that climb down first. Like an Escher staircase it’s hard to know what is up and what is down. We are magical creatures that don’t even understand just how magical we truly are without all the bells and whistles. Just us, naked, stripped of robes, glistening in all our glory as we become real with ourselves, we shall find peace again on earth. Nothing we buy, sell, or do to serve our ego can ever fill us to the point of contentment. The modern world has vibrationally slowed that I can sometimes almost hear her screeching and moaning to a premature halt.

I’m not religious, I was never brought up that way, but ponder whether perhaps the many words and scripts are metaphors for what we go through as people. So that only things are revealed to those that are ready and willing when the timing is right. Or the specific lesson that is needed comes forward in an obvious fashion so we can better grasp it with our own free will & decisiveness.
I hope I find my feet again once more.

I believe this is what they call growth.” – Jacqueline Freestone xx