You are home

Too deep for these shallow puddles. Surface level connections glide by in twilight, cycle through in double time, every time. Searching, searching for the answers that only come from within.

Misguided trials attempting to clutch at some kind of comfort. Searching for some solace in this endless maze of mirrors and smoke.

I dream to go home, but home seems an elusive place. It’s like a memory that echoes in my mind that never quite settles. It dances from light to darkness, always escaping true form.

Home is but a feeling, one that only you could make me feel. I yearn to go back there across imaginary roads long gone. You are my home.

May 13, 2026 0

32 years

32 years since I’ve seen your face, since I’ve held your hands or heard your voice. 32 years of longing.

I still remember the twang of electric pain shoot through my body and throat as I heard those words… “he died last night”.

The stillness was deafening, the finality I want to say overwhelming as I slammed the phone down, but so much more than this. I still haven’t found the words, in 32 years of longing.

You were always my safe haven, the ear to listen and the shoulder to cry on. You were my whole world, until my world was swiftly taken.

32 years of longing, and I have still never found respite. Still searching for you in every face, in every day that goes by.

32 years of longing even though my child mind is now grown. 32 years foreboding, waiting for another foot to fall, perhaps my own.

32 years, thiiiirty twoooo yeaaaars, I’ve been longer without than ever with. The moment you left us was the moment I wished to leave too. I knew I’d never find such love again, I just knew.

And 32 years has proven me right. Time and time again. My heart still aches my tears still wet, as I try hold on through the fear.

32 years. 32 years.

September 6, 2025 0

What they see

People think they see me

But they don’t see anything that’s there

They miss my heart, my kindness

My soul as it lays bare

Physical form, it blinds some

It keeps away our true light

Distracts us from our purpose

Chasing fantasies into the night

December 2, 2024 0

Heart strings

We don’t know where we’re going, just like stardust we’re still floating in the air.

But my heart it’s still beating has the resin on my heart strings from you there. It’s so unfair.

Was only such a short time, full of ups and downs like waves across the sea, but boy weren’t the highs higher than any mountain I’ve ever seen.

I hope some day we look back on our times & laugh at just how silly that we were. To almost put this spark out, with our head strong ways and darling if you please…

Can i introduce myself now to the man that I was too scared to really see.

August 6, 2020 1