When you love someone but they can’t meet you, or maybe you can’t meet them where they need to be met. It’s one of the most frustrating, heartbreaking & sad human experiences to be had. All the wonderful potential just stagnant and waiting idle, treading water and holding one’s breath. You just wish for a miracle and for things to be returned not just temporarily but consistently and without measure. But all that happens instead is maladaptive coping tactics that try to hide the shame and anxiety of not feeling enough, or the confusion of not knowing what to feel, a push and pull game occurs. Love can be such an elusive thing in an age where people only wish to share highlight reels. But love is no game, yet many are merely players.
It’s OK
It’s ok to have a freckle on your face
As long as it’s in the perfect place
It’s ok to have curls
All wild and long
Streaming down, but never coming undone
It‘s ok to have some extra fat
As long as it’s placed where you guys want it at
It’s ok to work a medial job
As long as you don’t mind being called a bogan slob
It’s ok to be short
As long as you wish to not date
It’s ok to have small breasts
As long as you understand your unsexy fate
It’s ok to be very old
As long as you wish to be alone
It’s ok to be a poor man
As long as you wish to never own your home
It’s ok to be ill
It’s ok to be sick in the head
As long as you afford the drugs
But don’t expect sympathy lying in your bed
It’s ok to be many things
But mostly it’s just not
It’s always easier for the other
But if it’s you, it’s not
Try and think outside your space
Just consider another’s shoes
Would you really walk much further
Could you really choose?
Sometimes things are out of reach
No matter what we do
So be a little kinder dear
You’ve got nothing else to prove
To feel
Confidence does not automatically mean you are competent. It does not mean you have your shit together. It can by all means show that you’re a lost little scared child that’s too fearful to show any vulnerability. In doing so you shut off and pretend not to feel, in the hopes you protect your soft little underbelly. Feeling is one of the strongest things we can do in life. To feel is to be human, to be fragile or to be heroic. Feeling will give you something back that hardening your fearful heart never will. You will grow. You might feel pain. But you will rise above it and become something even more magnificent than before. Never be afraid to feel, it’s the only pathway we have back to love – JLF
Rise in love
I want something miraculous, something amazing. I want a love that swallows me up, but also lets us both walk free on our own. I want a rock that I can return to after a long hard day, where I know I will always have love & support and be able to give my love and support back.
I don’t want broken promises and lies. I don’t want superficial proclamations of love. I don’t want ego. I want it to be real, to be true, to be forever. No matter what happens in love, even if we were to part, I want the love to remain, to stay as solid as the foundation it was built upon. Relationships can end, but it doesn’t mean love is gone forever, only morphed into a new way of loving. A new perspective and frequency that enables the growth of both people once more.
I want fireworks, and butterflies, but more than this, I want comfort and to know the rug won’t be pulled out from beneath my feet, nor will I pull it from beneath yours.
I want soul connection & passionate sex, because we get so lost in each other’s eyes and feel what the other person is feeling. To breathe each other in, and intertwine. I want a soulmate, a best friend, an equal but a person that challenges me and makes me strive to be more, as well as being able to be the teacher and guide right back. I want us to grow together and help each other achieve that. I want to excel at life together and create a future that I am proud to have and share.
I want to be able to do the mundane, the ordinary, and still be the happiest and entertained I’ve ever been, as well as be able to explore and see the world in a different way and travel and touch and taste. I want to fill my senses with you and with the world around me. I want to be free and I want you to be free. I want us to choose each other every day not because we have to but because we want to.
I want to fall into your arms and know it will all be ok, to never have to question your intentions, I want to feel safe and be your safety. Let’s grow old together as we rise in love…
JaxTrax 