And then I realised, it was me who was unwilling to open up. I hadn’t been myself. No wonder my sense of self was being questioned by him. My sense of purpose. I hadn’t let anyone know who I am. But little did he know, I was everything and more. Not less. I was just waiting for him to meet me there with some gentleness. I held space
Confidence does not automatically mean you are competent. It does not mean you have your shit together. It can by all means show that you’re a lost little scared child that’s too fearful to show any vulnerability. In doing so you shut off and pretend not to feel, in the hopes you protect your soft little underbelly. Feeling is one of the strongest things we can do in life. To feel is to be human, to be fragile or to be heroic. Feeling will give you something back that hardening your fearful heart never will. You will grow. You might feel pain. But you will rise above it and become something even more magnificent than before. Never be afraid to feel, it’s the only pathway we have back to love – JLF
I want something miraculous, something amazing. I want a love that swallows me up, but also lets us both walk free on our own. I want a rock that I can return to after a long hard day, where I know I will always have love & support and be able to give my love and support back.
I don’t want broken promises and lies. I don’t want superficial proclamations of love. I don’t want ego. I want it to be real, to be true, to be forever. No matter what happens in love, even if we were to part, I want the love to remain, to stay as solid as the foundation it was built upon. Relationships can end, but it doesn’t mean love is gone forever, only morphed into a new way of loving. A new perspective and frequency that enables the growth of both people once more.
I want fireworks, and butterflies, but more than this, I want comfort and to know the rug won’t be pulled out from beneath my feet, nor will I pull it from beneath yours.
I want soul connection & passionate sex, because we get so lost in each other’s eyes and feel what the other person is feeling. To breathe each other in, and intertwine. I want a soulmate, a best friend, an equal but a person that challenges me and makes me strive to be more, as well as being able to be the teacher and guide right back. I want us to grow together and help each other achieve that. I want to excel at life together and create a future that I am proud to have and share.
I want to be able to do the mundane, the ordinary, and still be the happiest and entertained I’ve ever been, as well as be able to explore and see the world in a different way and travel and touch and taste. I want to fill my senses with you and with the world around me. I want to be free and I want you to be free. I want us to choose each other every day not because we have to but because we want to.
I want to fall into your arms and know it will all be ok, to never have to question your intentions, I want to feel safe and be your safety. Let’s grow old together as we rise in love…
Sometimes we are so scared to tell our truth, afraid of what people might think, how people will judge us or reject us. What we don’t realise is that that truth can set us free. The thing we think nobody could understand maybe the very thing that bonds you & creates understanding. Be brave & speak your truth, no matter how you think it sounds. Nobody is perfect and in our flaws and mistakes we find deeper connection, understanding and love. Cleanse yourself of the shame and be who you are, live your life 💕