Category: Poetry

Stack the pieces

One last piece

Stacked upon me

Heavy piece by piece

Now coming three by three

I thought you were a lover

But no not for me

Killed me with that kindness

That fake bullshit make believe

No more endless forgiveness

I will no longer seed

Never give you the time

Nor a day to appease

You only wanted to see me bleed

Came back after eons

Twist the knife as you please

I just always accept and agree

But no, not this time, this time I leave

Hear my silence now

As I pick off these fleas

Just the stillness left

Wringing in your ears as I leave

No longer can you drag me down

No longer will I heed

Not even worth a story

Nor even a good deed

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Open arms 

Sometimes I wonder if he hated me only because I saw behind his mask. I saw the vulnerable sensitive parts of him and I was still OK with that. I loved those parts. I just wanted him to love them too.

He wanted me to fall in love only with his own delusions of what he wished he could be. He wanted fantasy over truth. But the truth was much more powerful and beautiful than any fantasy ever could be.

He was more than he believed, yet he could not allow himself out in the light for fear of being seen. What he didn’t realise was he was making himself less than, not more. I hope one day he finds his way home, into open arms.

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I wish I might…

Just you and me and a bottle or two

Some Netflix films and before we knew.

There we were, you melting into me

and I into you.

Like gravity at triple force. Our touch

grew closer with no remorse. It was the

perfect moment, the perfect night. Like

nothing else mattered, just being held

tight. That night you changed

my life.

With electricity the sparks ignite, heart

now throbbing, is it fear or delight? I

couldn’t lose another but here’s my

plight. I still wish I may I wish I might. 

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What I really wanted

What I really wanted was for you to bare your soul.

To show me all the little pieces where no one else could go.

I searched for you in every face, in every passer by.

But as the days progressed I could see it was all a waste of time

What I really wanted was for you to crave my soul.

To pick up all those pieces that you spread. Put me back, make me whole.

You never even turned your head to see if I’m still there. As I lay there bleeding from the heartache as you left.

What I really wanted was for you to never leave. To hold me in your arms. Hold me close, just squeeze.

You’ll never understand the love I had that was true. Insecurity ate it up spat it out, you never knew.

I just wanted you to see every good thought and good deed. But everything you twisted into some kind of negativity make believe.

But I meant every word and I meant so much more. Just wanted you to feel I always held open that door.

There was no other man. No other prize. I just wanted you for you. You were perfect in my eyes.

What I really wanted was for you to treat me kind. Not to push me to till I break. Test my waters till I cried.

I wanted nothing more than for you to have your success. Just to see you happy to have nothing but the best.

Instead you moved on. Like I never meant a thing. I guess you’ll never understand just exactly what I was offering.

What I really wanted and all I’ll ever need, it was you all along. No one else could ever supersede.

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