What I really wanted

What I really wanted was for you to bare your soul.

To show me all the little pieces where no one else could go.

I searched for you in every face, in every passer by.

But as the days progressed I could see it was all a waste of time

What I really wanted was for you to crave my soul.

To pick up all those pieces that you spread. Put me back, make me whole.

You never even turned your head to see if I’m still there. As I lay there bleeding from the heartache as you left.

What I really wanted was for you to never leave. To hold me in your arms. Hold me close, just squeeze.

You’ll never understand the love I had that was true. Insecurity ate it up spat it out, you never knew.

I just wanted you to see every good thought and good deed. But everything you twisted into some kind of negativity make believe.

But I meant every word and I meant so much more. Just wanted you to feel I always held open that door.

There was no other man. No other prize. I just wanted you for you. You were perfect in my eyes.

What I really wanted was for you to treat me kind. Not to push me to till I break. Test my waters till I cried.

I wanted nothing more than for you to have your success. Just to see you happy to have nothing but the best.

Instead you moved on. Like I never meant a thing. I guess you’ll never understand just exactly what I was offering.

What I really wanted and all I’ll ever need, it was you all along. No one else could ever supersede.

May 16, 2024 1

Heart strings

We don’t know where we’re going, just like stardust we’re still floating in the air.

But my heart it’s still beating has the resin on my heart strings from you there. It’s so unfair.

Was only such a short time, full of ups and downs like waves across the sea, but boy weren’t the highs higher than any mountain I’ve ever seen.

I hope some day we look back on our times & laugh at just how silly that we were. To almost put this spark out, with our head strong ways and darling if you please…

Can i introduce myself now to the man that I was too scared to really see.

August 6, 2020 1

A place to hide

Escape before your heart’s alight

That’s what they said to me.

But what’s the point in living on

If love’s nowhere to be seen

Open up and pull me in

I want a space to hide

Away from all our struggles

Away from all these lies

You look right through, but don’t connect It’s like we’re playing games

You move in me. We make amends but

Now I’m cast to sea

Can’t help just what I’m feeling.

Can’t save you from the past.

But today’s the day I walk away

I hope this thing called love will last

July 7, 2020 2

Eye talk

We had a whole conversation with our eyes. Maybe one day our lips would too. I want to know all of you & what every little glint meant in that moment. Like a fire works display they came alive as did my heart. The warmth from our souls shone through and for once, I felt safe, at peace. I was home.

May 28, 2020 0